Oblivious.

Oblivious.

Lately, my days have been different. I’ve found new friends, earned my own money. Also found a potential love interest, and started to take care of my health. I never understood why all changes in my life come with some kind of extreme event. Being completely honest, I think I’m so stubborn to the changes of life, that I need a hard hit to understand something has changed. I’ve always had problems with understanding subtleties. I need to know explicitly what people want to tell me. Because if they don’t, I can’t understand what they mean. And that has caused a lot of problems for me. I think the word you can use for that is oblivious. And I think it fits me like a glove.

By the way, social things were never my best skill. Well, I guess that’s obvious because of my asperger’s. But it’s more like being social never works for me. I always failed at making friends and talking to people. And I think my asperger’s isn’t completely responsible for that. But well, it’s just a feeling. Oh, on a good note, I am sheltering a cat we rescued from an electric fence. She was on the verge of passing away, but we managed to get her lively again. She’s so little, I think she isn’t even a month old. For now, we are keeping her inside my house, while she recovers from her infection and parasites. Saving her made me feel better, because now I am nurturing a life, a living being. It’s the same as having children.

On another topic, I learned to cook yesterday. It feels so good making your own food. It’s a lot healthier too. And cheaper. It wasn’t the most fancy meal, but the feeling that I made the food made it a lot tastier. I also had a family lunch, something I didn’t have for a long, long while. My family is always busy, so we never eat together.

That’s it for today. I hope you enjoyed reading. If you need to talk about asperger’s or any related matters, leave a comment below and I’ll try to answer. Have a nice day.

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  1. You need to keep telling yourself that you can do it; but, you need also need to understand your limits.
    XD I work at the brake of dawn when no one is around, and then work at night when no one is around.

    O_O So many things can go wrong when going outside, but I can’t allow myself to scared of the possible outcomes.

    Friends can be hard to make due them not understanding that I can’t read emotional empathy, which means a lot my responses can come off cold (I have Cognitive/Compassionate emaphy, I just don’t have emotional). But at the same time they can’t understand why I react to things that they feel are unimportant.

    *I can’t feel what you are feeling, but you can’t do the same with me ether.*

    T-o You need friends who are will to try and understand how you work. At the same time you need to do the same back (Which is a lot trial and error).

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